Only Lord Knows. Only you know. All I know is I don’t want to be confused by this dilemma ANYMORE! Take away what should not be and open only the doors that you have set before me to walk through. I will follow as you lead me. I thank you for everything that I have and everything that I have to yet to see. YOU are who I trust and believe in and I have faith that only you will show me the way. Grant me the patience that is needed on this journey because LORD this uncertainty is the toughest test of them all. I love you forever, I JUST ASK THAT YOU TAKE AWAY EVERYTHING THAT I SHOULD NOT BE FOCUSING ON. IN THE MIGHTY NAME OF JESUS I PRAY. AMEN.

– byTokz

[Instrumental: J Dilla – Earl]

Can’t get hit with the Light,
They know it’s me when I sift through the fight.
Owwee, Who he, rocking on the mic,
Say Yell-O, not a word do I write.
Now the mission is, how I get this shit,
handling the bars, babe bro peep the witnesses,
came through wrote the movie then I flipped the script.
Every single thing that I touch is success,
Don’t mind him, he could handle the stress,
he could handle the test,
he makes more of the less.

It’s me!

– byTokz

I don’t know everything. I don’t claim to know either. But what I do know, I know, lol. Be comfortable in this Tokz. I’m a firm believer in Jesus Christ. I believe my God puts me in places and positions that are purposely made for me, however, that doesn’t always keep the doubt from creeping in. I’m sometimes an emotional person and I know for my future success I have to get a better handle on that… Anyway, a lot has been going on – just got back from vacation (Rolling Loud), finished up the second round, and put the stranglehold on my last major event of the season. I know there is a major change headed my way so I am going to be focused on finishing up this season strong. I’m looking forward to new GROWTH. I’ve been telling myself and my friends that we’re going to be experiencing a summer like never before and the signs of life have been proving me nothing but right. LORD, I just want to say thank you in advance. Love you.

Oh yeah, my mom’s birthday is coming up this weekend. I couldn’t tell you enough Mom how much I love you. Happy early bday young lady.

– byTokz

“When it comes to the right situation, I’m not black.” Lol, don’t pay me no mind. Currently, on the phone with my lady friend and intelligently discussing MET gala outfits. I could care less about any of them. It’s been a while since I checked back in but I missed you. I missed writing about my life to myself and whoever else may this. A lot of progress is being made right now and I can’t be happier. I see success, therefore, I am taking the necessary steps to ensure it. Gonna be leaving for Rolling Loud in about 3 days but there is much work for me to wrap up. With that comes very stressful days. Happy to say that I’ve reconnected with my classic PS2 games which have offered me a great sense of relief, along with Lise Blood, I love you. As I said, I see SUCCESS and I can’t wait to share the good news. Until next time…

– byTokz

Ahhhh. Sitting here on this comfortable brown futon, amazed at how quickly this allergy season has snuck up on me. Nonetheless, this weekend was really good to me, quite adventurous. Finished off a very successful lental season and the first thing I did in this new period was have a wonderful breakfast with my Dad. He’s going to be in Nigeria over the next couple of weeks and it’s important that I send him off the right way – cheese eggs, grits, and sausage (pork for him, turkey for me), yummmm. Headed home to clean up a bit for a friend staying over later that night then I headed out Good Friday service with my Mom and a close friend of hers. I heard seven different speakers that day and enjoyed every last one of them. Ran a few errands before I headed out to dinner with a few of my friends at the Thirsty Turtle. We’re of marketing backgrounds, and once all worked together. Without realizing it, we have been meeting for over a year now and I must that I enjoy every bit of our time together. Not long before I was on the move again, heading out to meet one of my dear friends at a poetry event of his that he’s been hosting for quite some time. We haven’t had much time to catch up with one another so it was a great pleasure that I not only got to spend time with him but also see him at work. Not to mention I was able to catch up with his family, who have always played a major role in my life. Still, in Friday, I wrapped up the day with heading to pick up one of my best friends, who was also visiting another close friend of mine (yes, I know, its a lot of “friend” talk), to stay the night at my house. To say I was tired would be an understatement. Unfortunately, my two cats would care very little about that as they ran and ripped through my apartment all night keeping me wide awake. LOL, I’m laughing just thinking about it. The next day, after medicating myself with ZZZquil, I woke up in a foggy mist that I was forced to break through. Again, I and some of my high school friends bought tickets to a Carribean Festival at Rutgers University a few weeks ago and we had to be in by a certain time in order to get access. Barely making it in, I was happy to just relax in this party atmosphere and not feel pressed to do anything I didn’t want to. Hung there a bit and then headed to Buffalo Wild Wings to eat and catch some basketball. My Pistons sucked but the food was great. All in all, a great night. Finished the weekend with the most important event of them all, celebrating my Lord, Jesus Christ, resurrection. A great service had with some great people. I immediately headed home afterward to eat and SLEEP! Now I am here, preparing myself for all that this week will bring. I love you all and most importantly, I love life. Stay Happy People.

– byTokz