Today was a BATTLE. Today was a MENTAL BATTLE, a MENTAL STRUGGLE.
Today was an extreme test. Not sure why but, from time to time, I tend to spend my brain cells worried about the lives of others, not so much that it keeps me from taking care of myself and my responsibilities but enough to overthink it. Tokz tends to overthink A LOT! At various times I tried stepping away from my desk at work, talking to my parents, and/or praying. While it did help a lot, by the end of the day I was mentally drawn. As rough as it is to negate these constant life and personal issues, I think it was important for me to go through this today. Like I stated earlier, this was a test, and an important one nonetheless. My goal is when it happens again (because it will) is that I can recognize it and successfully push it to the side. In the end, it is all mental. With that being said, I am going to leave you here. My team is playing their last game of the season and it is a MUST WIN in order for us to get into the playoffs. GO PISTONS!

– byTokz

So my face is breaking out and I’m not digging it… Why? I have no idea, but I’m trying my best to rid myself of these evil face soldiers. Last night, the world received some very disturbing news… We lost Ermias Asghedom (aka Nipsey Hussle). I’m not a fan of posting shit on social media but I feel much more comfortable speaking here about it. This place/blog is where I empty my heart and mind. I didn’t know you personally, Ermias, but I feel/felt the energy you’ve brought to this earth. When hearing the news I felt so unworthy to enjoy my own life. How and why did something this happen to someone bringing so much good? How can I be allowed to enjoy life when these good people can’t? I know that isn’t what’s needed by anyone so I’m doing my best to keep a positive spirit and enjoy the life that I have by making the most of it. With that said, Rest in Peace, Ermias Asghedom. May God bless you and your family…

In addition, I must add that today I began my new journey on two accords, I got a new cat addition to my house and I shot my first shot (you’ll find out what this means soon). Well, until next time people.

– byTokz

This is one is for you precious. It’s currently 7:11 am on a Thursday and I’m up getting some work done. But my cat, who’ve always had a difficult time with skin allergies, is having a really bad episode this morning. Its been a bit rough for her with this condition and I often have to give her medicine and adjust her diet. Being that I love her dearly, I have difficulty being that strict with her especially since she loves her fancy feast. However, I think its time I nail this down for her sake. She’s 12 years and lost her brother last year (We love and miss you Chappelle). I will not lose her like this! Treatment is oh so expensive but this is just a note to self that I must get her the medical attention she needs and adjust her diet. I am also bringing home a new cat next week, so in the meantime, Precious will be wearing a cone to keep her from viciously gnawing at her skin :(. All in all, I love you baby girl Preschh.

– byTokz

AYYYYYYYE (Fonz Voice). Picking up speed and it feels good.
Currently laying down on my couch, watching That 70’s Show 
and doing some work on some personal projects and
I’m excited about my future. Just screwed up my domain mapping so
I’m also dealing with my issue with being patient. But I hope writing
this thought out helps me get over it and wait until I can fix it.
Anyway, I’ve been making some consistent changes in my life and it’s been going well.
Did some laps in the pool this morning, went to church, and then took momma out
to eat at Central Restaurant (which has definitely become my go-to spot in downtown Newark). Got the Rolling Loud Festival coming in a month but I got
a huge inclination that much is going to happen before then and I can’t wait!
Until next time…

– byTokz

Awe man,
what a fucking day.
So productive. So meaningful. So much F.U.N.
I feel so exhilarated right now (despite my pistons taking this loss tonight).
I’ve been trouble sleeping these last few days but tonight, I know I will rest well.
WHOOOOOO.
DAMN, I MADE SO MUCH PROGRESS TODAY.
Let’s keep this momentum going Tokz.
I’m a pretty busy person, so I must remember to prioritize my time to maintain this efficiency.
Some good seeds were planted today that I hope manifests in the future.
But nonetheless, today was a good fucking day.
P.S – 12 days into my lent and I thank God for how he is keeping me in this time.
I love you all.

– byTokz